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Hand of the Maker. Cortland's Letter.Hand of the Maker. Cortland's Letter. by emmav
Back when the world changed, when I told you 'I know', it was because I did.
I knew that you didn't want to be alive anymore; that you wanted it to end. But it didn't end, did it? You're still here and it's partly my fault, and I'm glad. I'm glad to be hated for this.
You should know that there was a time in my life when I felt the same. I wanted it all to end. I had just watched my mother die in my arms because I had been too stupid and too slow to save her, you may remember the day. I was sat alone that evening considering my failure: Remembering my sister's broken body after I had guided us straight into the ogre that had taken her life; remembering my brother's face as he had been removed from my side and into the shambles of an existence that I had forced upon him. I didn't want to let anyone else down. I couldn't stand the burden. I had been considering how best to die when you walked in.
You saved me then, Anders. You carefully pulled me back and tethered me to this worl
As you may have read in my last journal entry, I've recently discovered a rather debilitating obsession with BBC's Sherlock - to the point where I have all but demanded my poor husband get me all three seasons on DVD for my birthday next week. I mean really, the show is addictive and funny and suspenseful, and when they say that brainy is the new sexy oh MAN did they nail it here! I mean, WOW... fangirling up a storm over here. Good lord is that snarky bastard hot!
That being said... I'm having a little trouble pulling myself back into Fable. I'm really trying - really! It's just that he (Sherlock) is such a bad boy and I can't stop this effing swooning!
I still have my plot for OGaH down, and I have every intention of carrying on. It's there in print in my idea journal, and more details for the storyline and its progression are scratched into my little book daily. It's just the actual characterization I'm having trouble with. Ben and Sherlock are so totally different, and I couldn't bear doing Ben a disservice like writing him poorly. He's a very near and dear character to me as well. And as the story is told from Ben's perspective it is vital that I get out of Sherlock's head and back into Ben's before I start writing (if that makes any sense at all.)
Just please give me a bit to get over Sherlock. It shouldn't be hard - once I have the DVDs I can obsess to my heart's content - and if my husband doesn't get them for me I'm treating myself! LOL!
I never intended to get so wrapped up into a television show. It was just something we popped on the TV one night while I was feeling really depressed and apathetic. Then BAM! Sherlock and John meet for the first time and my head went spinning.
If you haven't watched it yet, and are open to developing a new unhealthy obsession, I highly - HIGHLY - recommend it! The first two seasons are on Netflix and I streamed the third season on www.pbs.org. Episode one of season three: video.pbs.org/video/2365150373…